A Great and Sleepless Weekend

This has been a fantastic weekend, even though I feel like I spent the whole time awake. Still lingering in sickness but slowly crawling out, I spent most of the nights coughing up my lungs and trying to breathe without my nose.

Friday I picked up the BUFF postcards and came home to hammer out some final notes on the Holly Hox shoot the next day. John and I fell asleep late, and somehow managed to continue arguing as we slept. I have no idea, I just remember talking and being angry without really processing how or why. We sort of get on these bickering streaks sometimes, it's just dumb stuff that doesn't really affect us emotionally. There's just a lot going on now, with the potential move to DC and the job hunt and the BFA and the wedding. We feel the weight of everything, definitely. But we keep each other around.

Saturday morning we drug ourselves out of bed, made a hasty pot of coffee and headed for Allston. My friend Caity invited me to dinner that night, and in a miraculous stroke of convenience, she lives with Nate, who is in the Holly Hox band. We had the shoot during the day and then hung out all night with beers. They are all people I don't see nearly enough.

Woke up this morning surprisingly hung over (3 beers?). Made some coffee and got to work cleaning the house like mad. Between my full time job and John's, um, indifference, the mess started piling up until it reached epic, war-zone proportions. I really wanted to get to the BUFF meeting today, but we ran completely out of time and had to start setting up for the evening Holly Hox shoot, as well as getting the food ready for dinner.

Five people over for dinner, crammed in our little kitchen over vegetarian coq-au-vin (keep an eye out for it on John's blog). When they left, I couldn't help myself, I started cutting the Holly Hox footage together. It looks great, which makes me really happy, and makes me feel confident for once. I haven't made anything of my own in a while, and though this is being done for someone else, it's to the same effect. Mirror Men has been my only self-contained project, really, in an extremely long time.

Now I have to work on the BUFF calendar a little, see if there's something I can go to tomorrow night (probably at the Milky Way if you kids want to join me), and write Anna Feder an email. It's three in the morning, I have work tomorrow, and I'm dog tired but I honestly don't want to sleep. I want to make more coffee and keep going. I really want to do well at everything I've got in my hands right now. I guess we'll see.